well guys looks like megan is right..

i have a busy week ahead of myself.
my argument paper is due friday.
my sociology paper on family is due monday.
my katrina paper is due anytime this week.
i need to pick up my parking pass.
oh yeah and i have a test in my bio class again.

i hate quantitative biology. it sucks. and i suck at it. i mean dont get me wrong, at least im learning, but i've never had so much trouble in a class before in my life. its nuts. AHHHHH. <---thats me screaming right now.

anyways.
i think that megan and i are going to do the apt. thing on friday, finally. im real exited about that.
i cant wait till this weekend. im thinkin state for a night?..sounds good to me :)
i miss my girls!

so spring break this year??? anyone interested??! cause i know i sure as hell am.

recap.
this weekend was crazy to say the least.
friday = wow. good and a little bad too. got drunk w/elle babe, hung out with justin for a while..then these other kids. all i have to say about them is.. drunk words are sober thoughts. i learned a lot, but thats a good thing.

saturday = goooooood times!
JB's 20th b-day party was soo much fun. loved every minute of it. ended up walking home at like 5:30 in the morning.. with writing all over my arms and back, and someones belt and bracelet. lol. :) gotta love it.

SOO Excited for friday in canada.. BIRTHDAY time. its gonna be a good time! so everyone better come! :) :) :)

i have a feeling this weekend is gonna fly by, but thats a good thing.

[im sorry i cant be perfect]

so im up at western right now waiting for elle to get off of work.. and just hangin with her cool roomate becky. i cant wait till tomorrow night.. its gonna be off the hook. lol, yes i definately just said offt he hook so sue me. =). im in such a good mood right now, for really no reason at all. i didnt do anything all night, but i kinda enjoyed it. it was relaxing.. and i guess this way i wont wake up with a bad hangover tomorrow night. thank god.

welp im out. peace bitches.

GOOOD WEEKEND w/ elle in canada for the birthday! very interesting to say the least, but SOO much fun!
can't wait till halloween!!...costume parties![ =) ]


[A is for age:] 17 [birthday countdown: 2 weeks bitch]

[B is for booze of choice:] 100 proof SoCo [yumm!] or Captains.

[C is for career:] Publicist.

[D is for your dad's name:] Robert.

[E is for essential items to bring to a party:] my girls..liquor helps too.

[F is for favorite song at the moment:] Oasis-wonderwall.

[G is for favorite game:] waterfall .. or beer pong.

[H is for hair color:] brown w/a lil blonde curtosey of my crazy roomates!

[I is for instruments you play:] none, but some teach me how to play the drums.. NOW! please.

[J is for jam or jelly you like:] strawberry.

[K is for kids?] i <3 em. but i dunno about having my own...

[L is for living arrangements:] dormin it up @ CMU .. with my fav. ladies!

[M is for mom's name:] Sandra.

[N is for name of your crush ] dont u wish u knew. ;)

[O is for overnight hospital stays] none exaculty. just till like 2 in the AM cuz of a couple broken ribs.

[P is for phobias:] heights, spiders.

[Q is for quotes you like:] i live for the nights ill never remember, with the friends ill never forget.

[R is for relationship that lasted the longest] 2 months-back in junior year of highschool w/tackett- LOL! funny shit.

[S is for sex:] im a gooooooood girl. :)

[T is for time you wake up:] m/w/f 10 for class... any other days who knows.

[U is for underwear:] pink boy shorts from vickies.

[V is for vegetables you love:] ... i like most of them actually.

[W is for weekend plans:] HALLOWEEEEEEEN PARTTIES!!! woo hoo. excited x6481263

[X is for x-rays you've had:] Ribs, head... i think that might be it.

[Y is for yummy food you make:] cant cook for shit.

[Z is for zodiac sign:] Scorpio bAby.

[we sit on front proches and swing life away].

i came home for the weekend.. for gregs birthday, and i didnt even end up going to canada with him. which kinda made me mad.. but o well ill get over it.

i chilled at tikannen's house friday night after the game with mike and jerrick... played waterfalls and quarter bounce... then just went home.

very exciting weekend, let me tell you.

taking the car up to school for a week.. YEAH!!! that makes me happy.

countdown till elles birthday: 7 days.. holy shit!!!! PARTYYYY!!! Canada.. YOU SHOULD COME WITH! .. it might get a little out of hand.. im not gonna lie.

Megan tagged me.

List 20 things about yourself then tag 5 people to do the same.
1. im afraid of heights, but i LOVE rollercoasters
2. i hate when i cant control situations
3. if i could, i'd pack up my things right now and move to New York
4. i cant live without my family
5. i hate commitment
6. i'd do ANYTHING for the people i care about
7. i drink & party wayy to much
8. i forgive people way to easily
9. i over analyze a lot of situations
10. i love listening to people and thier problems
11. my favorite state is Georgia
12. winter is my favorite season
13. i make up excuses for everything
14. my puppy makes me happy
15. im obsessed with taking pictures
16. i LOVE halloween
17. i hate when guys are predictable
18. i dont ever want to grow up
19. im not emotional
20. im way to picky

1. Elana
2. Sam
3. Miya
4. Hallie
5. Shannon

you only bring people down...soon they will want to get rid of you too.. everyone can see right through you.

[ its alright, and i put myself in his hands
but i hold onto secrets, in white houses ]

classes were easy today. even though i hate bio, and my teacher doesnt make any sense. o well, im over it.

beer pong tonight at sigma pi? maybe...:)

i was looking rhrough my pictures from highschool last nite, and it made me laugh. i miss the good old days getting high before team sports. walking into a class that 3/4ths of the kids were stoned off their ass.

lets be serious here, as much as we all bitched about Dondero, we all had the time of our lives there. pretending to hate people just cause other pple did, getting wasted every weekend (and every week night right em?), trying to figure out ways to skip classes without getting marked absent, trying to act straight in class so no one knew you were fucked up, figuring out a way to cheat without getting caught, realizing that substiutes in 4th hour meant LOOOOOONG and early lunches.
hopefully college will be 20 times as sweet.

let go of the things in your life that dont make you a better person. trust me, it'll make a HUGE difference.

last night was crazy, to say the least.

my mom came up to visit, so her and i went out to eat for dinner and hung out for a lil while. then i went back to the dorm, got ready, and went to a party at chip village. i ended up gettin drunk and the cops came and it freaked me out.. i didnt know what to do LOL. its fine tho, no one got in trouble or anything it was kinda funny! then we all just went back to bobs and chilled and i walked my ass home at like 5 in the morning.. crazy huh. it was good times. :)

then this morning my mom called me to go to the game and tailgate but i was wayyy to tired to get my ass out of bed so i slept for a lil while. katie came with me to find my mom at the stadium and we got food and went shopping for more food for the room! we randomly saw joel at the store.. so i think we might hang out with them tonight.

my stomach needs to feel better before i go out tho...

elle hope ur havin fun without me! lol. wish i coulda gone there..

well.. i dont even know what to say.

wow, where do i even start?

last night laura and i went over to bob's house to meet up with that crew and ended up going to dan kimes apartment for a party. MALLORY was there and i hadnt seen her in soo long. i luv her, she's so funny. then after a while i randomly saw jamie martin and joel bauer, RANDOM! Jamie got me a free cup cause im his whittier crew :) . lol. we stayed for a while.. then took the after party back to bobs place. Anywyas i decided at about 2 that it was time for me to start walking.. joel ended up picking me up and taking me back to where a couple other pple were hanging out at his place. we watched a random ass movie called donnie darko, and then we walked me "half" way back to the dorms at 7 in the morning. it was a randomly crazy night, but also a lot of fun.

CANT WAIT TILL NEXT WEEKEND!!! haha.

i have a lot of homework to do unfortunately.. but it shouldnt be that hard cause its not my bio shit.
i woke up to a missed call from *him*..i was excited. stil havent called him back though.

im thinkin that the next time im comin home will be for gregs birthday in october, so that we can all go to Canada. I guess that means i should start saving my money. its wierd.. everyone always tells me that when your a freshman you want to go home all the time.. but i have yet to actually WANT to go home. i love it up here. its my new home. :).


so everyone needs to come up here and VISIT ME!!

its crazy..when u actually think about it.
i mean theres no reason why it wouldn't work, but theres really no reason why it should either.
i guess thats what makes it interesting. o well. i love it.

ah im so excited, elle is picking me up next weekend and we are going up to ur upnorth for the weekend. its about freakin time that we could hang out!

went to chip village last night to party with those boys. it was a lot of fun, got drunk and then walked home w/ a couple other pple. i talked to marz at the party and i think its hilarious that *she* was trying to get marz to hate me.. but im not suprised...its something that she'd do. trust me, after a while you get use to it. we decided shes full of shit.

i think tonight i might b hanging out with chelsea.. im thinkin that we are gonna go to the pub or something. who knows. whatever we do, it better be fun thats all i gotta say. i had a stressful week.. and im ready to just have some fun!! wooooo.

i LOVE it up here.
EVERYONE COME VISIT ME! :)

sorry bout that last one...at the time i was a little frustrated..but now im good. no worries. no hard feelings. lol.

so i was talkin to greg on the phone last night, and i realized how much i miss my family and my puppy. but its cool cause he's pickin me up his birthday weekend and all of US are gonna go spend the weekend in Canada and get wasted. its gonna be a GREAT time. i also talked to Jordan last night on the phone for a while. im gonna miss him and nate sooo much when they move. how sad..but hopefully they will still come and visit me. :).

so i had two classes today, and i slept through my first one..then i went to my 2nd one only to leave with these two kids to go get food. WOW..good job bobbie. good thing it was a lecture i already knew. haha. well anyways.. im hopin that it cools down soon b.c i have no air conditioning up here.. and it sucks. AHHH..

my mom bought me a really cute abercrombie coat for winter.. i <3 it! i cant wait to wear it. lol.

well im out.. prolly go gonna wat or do some homework real quick.

[throw the thought of US away]

[our scars remind us that the past is real]

well for once in my life im actaully at a loss for words. crazy huh? very wierd.
i guess at first i didnt want to believe it, i mean i trusted her. we were "best" friends.. or were we?

-all those times that we sat in ur car high as hell and laughed till we cried.
-all the random parties where we knew no one at all, yet still managed to meet everyone there.
-all the crazy stories we had from Puerta Vallarta.
-all the stupid inside jokes that no one but us understood, and no one but us thought were funny.
-all the times we promised to always tell eachother the truth no matter what.
-all the times we got drunk in my room and tried to act straight as we were leaving.
-warped tour, meeting hott ass muscians, getting backstage passes
-flirting with best friends, just because we were best friends
-throwing those parties and making all those jello shots the weekend teddy b left us home alone
-going shopping pretty much every weekend..
-going on a random road trip to cedar point hung over as hell
... im really glad everything that had to do with our friendship meant nothing to you megan.
did you really think id never find out about all the lies?

yeah its hard to stop being friends with a girl that i've been good friends with on and off since 6th grade.. but i cant stand liars anymore. we are in college now, we're all adults. the funny thing is if you just would have told me that you did those things i would not have cared one bit. but the fact that i had to find out from someone else, and you still continue to deny it, and claim that you dont remember it.. thats wherein lies the problem.



*thanks for always bein there for me elle, especially when you had other things you'd rather be doing. :) xoxo. dont know what id do without u.

anyways on a better note..
this weekend was a lot of fun, went to a kegger last night and got trashed with a few people, then went to a friends dorm w/hallie and about 7 other people and attempted to fall asleep...didnt work out to well. so i ended up walking back to my dorm at 5:30 in the morning and missed my ride w/ bob and them to state damnit. lol, i guess i was a little passed out alright? shit. o well. theres always next weekend.

cant wait*

[i tear my heart open, just to feel]

[i use to stand so tall, i use to be so strong...]

i hate you. okay hate is a strong word, so i DISLIKE you..A LOT. not that you will actually read this, or that i will ever get the guts to say it to your face. but maybe, just maybe, it makes me feel better that i can say it to other people. pathetic? who cares. im sick of you, and your shit.

[swallow me, then spit me out
for hating you, i blame myself
seeing you it kills me now
no i dont cry, on the outside anymore...]

maybe some people feel bad for you because they dont want to part on bad terms, and maybe im one of them. but i'd never forgive myself if something happened to you and i never had a chance to take back all the mean things ive said. (even if you deserved ALL OF THEM). so here i am, pretending that i DONT care, pretending that the point of this was to wish you good luck and tell you to be safe. yep, thats about where this will end. b/c im done. yep, im done.

now that i got that off my chest..
i dont have class till 2, thank god i actually got to sleep in for the first time in a while and it felt damn good. i was looking up foreign exchange programs yesterday and i found a couple that sparked interest. i cant wait for my freshman year to be over so that i can start w/classes that actually interest me, and not classes that i have to take. Dont EVER take quantitative biology... it blows! 3 hours of homework every lecture hall.. and about an hour or so for every lab. yeah shitty huh? oh well.. maybe after this class i will actually learn something about bio.

[behind these hazel eyes.]

so i went home for a couple of days this weekend, to see my fam and some friends that i hadn't seen in forever. :). it was a lot of fun.. brown had some people over and greg and i went through a fifth of yager and red bull. it was a lot of fun, i was wasted. i ended up walking my ass home from catalpa and 11 mile. i mean doesnt sound THAT far, right? well lets just say that it sounds even further when you are wasted. o well. i guess a lil fresh air never hurt anyone.

then i slept about 5 hours before my mom decided to wake me up cause she made me breakfast. lol, how could i say no?
that night i ended up going w/nate and elle to a Frat party at Detroit Mercy. 6 shots, 5 beers later..:). no seriously it was a LOT of fun, i met some funny people and had a blast. Ive never seen that many people crammed into such a small area. but it was definately worth going for. i got home at about 4.. and once again my mom wakes me up early (8) so that she can take me back up to school.

after sleeping for about 3 hours and doing about 2-3 hours of bio homework, im finally just sitting here chillen and thinking about how much i dont want to go to class tomorrow. but o well.. i will get over it.

anyways..i miss elle already.. JUST TRANSFER TO CENTRAL ALREADY DAMNIT! :) just cause u love me!
i dont know what to do w/o my best.

countdown till my birthday fuckers...2 months..6 days. CANT WAIT..almost legal.



everything happens for a reason. cliche, yes i know. but i believe it 100 percent. or at least thats what im going to keep telling myself until i forget about you. [hopefully it will be sooner rather than later].

just got back from class and all i have to say is wow. im so glad im not in highschool anymore, i could definately get use to these 50 minute classes.. every other day :). my next one isnt till noon, so i have a little bit of a break.

so im thinking that next weekend im just gonna stay up here instead of going home for labor day. adam's susposed to come up here for a lil while to visit me and unless he wants to drive me home i dont know how else to get there.. but it doesnt matter to me. i LOVE it up here...its not like royal oak. no drama [at least not yet].

gotta love it.

last night elle came to visit me, b.c she loves me and we were having withdrawls. funny, huh. we had a lot of fun, we hung out with a bunch of people that she use to go to highschool with. we got completely wasted then met chelsea at the pub and got a lil more wasted. it was great. then we ended up leaving and going back to that apartment party.

my mom and dad are coming up to take me out to dinner and to drop off my phone battery :). its about damn time. i havent had a phone in 2 days, and it feels like FOREVER. i think gregs also gonna stop by tonight to chill. im kinda excited to see my bro, i miss him.

im really loving it up here, theres always so much to do and im really never bored. its great. its such a big difference from royal oak, where theres never shit to do. i miss some of my friends, but i know that they are gonna come and see me when they can! :)

jessie ohara: i need to talk to you ASAP!! so when u see this you need to call my cell phone... u will NEVER guess who i hung out with up here.... 506-4400.... ur gonna laugh so hard... SO CALL ME !!!

so last night was my first night up at CMU. It was completely crazy, i hung out with chelsea and some of her friends. they were funny as hell..they took me to the bar and got me wasted. it was definately a great way to start off at a new school. i dont know how i did it, but i managed to flush the battery to my phone down the toilet so now im phoneless until greg brings me a new battery.

but its not that bad b.c he said that he might be coming up either thursday night or friday night.
elles coming up to visit me also on thursday..and im REALLY excited about that b.c i havent seen her since she left for her new apartment!! MISS U GIRL!

so my roomies are at some stupid leadership safari thing until about 1 tongiht...so idk what im gonna do. maybe hangout with chelsea or somethin.

i went for a walk today by myself..cause i was sick of sitting around...and i have NO idea where ANYTHING on this campus is. o well, im sure ill get use to it.

so tonight elle and i decided we wanted to go see kelly clarkston, so we drove out there and bought tickets at the gate. it was actually a good concert... yeah i will admit that i had a blast! :). luckily we got our asses into the pavillion, cause it started to rain half way through.

then we got all the way out to another party to find out that we couldnt go b.c of megan's gay X b/f. thats ridiculous. so we went to another friends house to party..but ended up leaving kinda early. oh well. all in all it was a good night.. interesting to say the least, but definately good.

tomorrows OUR last day of work!!! WOOOOO! im so excited. im kinda screwed b.c i need sooo much more money to pay for books, but i dont even care anymore. screw it.


you never expect it too turn into a weakness, but rarely are you ever able to prevent it. It's almost as unexplainable as it is unpredictable... are you understanding this yet?...

i leave for school in about...a week or so.. and i cant tell you how excited i am. Finally a chance to get away from Royal Oak, i mean dont get me wrong i grew up here and i love it here, but sometimes it can get VERY old. Its so wierd to think about the fact that we only have 4 years (or so) left of school..ah, CRAZY! i have a feeling Central is gonna be a blast.. and hopefully i do well enough to transfer somewhere!

speaking of going away..i only have one more day left of work...its on thursday! CAN'T WAIT! :)

my dad called me last night, and he's gonna be stuck in ohio for a couple more weeks, so he wont be here before i leave for college. im kinda sad about that, but he can always come up and visit me when he does get home.

KELLY CLARKSTON 1 DAY!!!! :) WOOOOOO!!!